I feel a little hypocritical posting my super upbeat Christmas post at the end of what has not been a super upbeat week. It has been one of those weeks where I have been sick, Brian has been stressed studying like a maniac and taking 4 Biology finals, Maybrie has been throwing massive temper tantrums and has abnormally woken us in the night multiple nights, Thomas has been extra fussy because of new teeth coming in... overall not a good combination for our household! The whining and crying is making my ears buzz (on top of the sore throat, runny nose, and headache) and I feel just plain wiped out... zero energy and zero patience. While I beat myself up for yelling at Maybrie and overreacting multiple times simply because I am tired and grumpy, I try to tell myself that this is normal and tomorrow is a new day. A day where I can try harder, feel a little better, and be one day closer to the end of Brian's semester.
I think that blogging is therapeutic for me. When I need to count my blessings and focus on all of the good things in my life, rather than dwell on the things that are going wrong or bugging me... I blog. I pull up adorable pictures of my children and the good moments where everyone is smiling and laughing. The times when I feel like a good mother that does do fun things and isn't always saying "no" and "stop that!" Life can be a real roller coaster sometimes. I continue to be amazed by how many emotions I can go through so quickly, I know that is a normal girl thing, but I think it is magnified sometimes as a mother. My children can make me laugh and scream in the same minute! Even though I felt my sanity slipping today and had to run to a friend for help so that I could put myself in "time out" from my kids to cool down... I still love them. I still love being a mom. I still think of Christmas gifts I want to buy them or places I want to take them... while they are screaming in their bedrooms! :)
There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, whether it be Brian coming home and helping with the kids for two hours before bedtime or just 15 minutes of quiet while Thomas naps and Maybrie watches a movie. I am grateful that no matter how worked up I get, I always seem to calm down and find something to smile about. Like right now after I swept the floor the kids decided they wanted to help me mop. They are both still pushing Swiffer sweepers/mops around the kitchen floors like it is the funnest game they have ever played! ha ha! And Brian just found out he got an A- in one of his classes! Wahoo! Hard work paying off... always a good feeling. So, here is to hoping next week, with finals and illness behind us, will be better.